On June 30 it was 6 months since we had Gracie Ann. Gracie had already left this world before she entered it. My heart just breaks over and over again when I think about it, which is still often. I can't believe that 6 months have gone by, when at times it feels like just yesterday. At the same time it feels so long ago and I find myself not being consumed with the loss of our baby girl. I have been feeling more like myself in the last few months, which is a blessing, but the healing process isn't over. It has been almost a year since finding out about Gracie's diagnosis and July is when I started having the tests done. For about a year, I felt like I was walking on the outside looking into my life and being weighed down by worry and grief. I do think that these next 6 months could be difficult because it was just a year ago we were going through many doctor appointments, testing and with each test hearing bad news. So the coming months have many reminders that are still close to my mind and heart. If you could continue to pray and think of us that would be greatly appreciated.
I am finding so much comfort in my God since this all began, who has graciously brought me through one of hardest things in this life to experience. I don't think I would be where I am at if I didn't have my faith and hope in God. He continues to bring comfort in His word and through others in my life.
I am doing the Bible in one year plan, and the other day I was reading Psalm 112. It has really stuck out to me and touched me, especially verses 4-8. I would like to share it with you.
Praise the Lord!
Blessed is the man who fears the Lord,
who greatly delights in his commandments!
2 His offspring will be mighty in the land;
the generation of the upright will be blessed.
3 Wealth and riches are in his house,
and his righteousness endures forever.
4 Light dawns in the darkness for the upright;
he is gracious, merciful, and righteous.
5 It is well with the man who deals generously and lends;
who conducts his affairs with justice.
6 For the righteous will never be moved;
he will be remembered forever.
7 He is not afraid of bad news;
his heart is firm, trusting in the Lord.
8 His heart is steady; he will not be afraid,
until he looks in triumph on his adversaries.
9 He has distributed freely; he has given to the poor;
his righteousness endures forever;
his horn is exalted in honor.
10 The wicked man sees it and is angry;
he gnashes his teeth and melts away;
the desire of the wicked will perish!
